Happy?

Today. Yes, today. It has made this year a little more meaningful. Did not had a great time at all ever since the month of December the past year. A few incidents happened to day that made it all the more lovely. One particular incident really put the smile back to where it was supposed to be. I'm dumbstruck, but I think it's... Well... I don't know.

Just finished my exams. And schooling is tough. Very tough. I officially have eyebags and I intend to go for plastic surgery. Not really. FMEyebags. :)

I still wonder if anybody still reads blogs belonging to their friends or peers. If there are, am glad that my blog isn't left unknown, doomed to rot in the digital cemetery for eternity. That's of utmost terror! Well, I'm sure there's a minority out there who's still into blog-reading and of course enjoy the age-old hobby of reading biographies, blog posts and journal entries. That's just a much nicer way to mask the intention of saying that you're a nosy person. Oh well. Everybody has noses. You're forced to have one, like it or not. :)

Oh, one very silly yet fun thing that I've that in the past week was taking part in a calligraphy competition organised by SMK Jinjang's Chinese Society. Well, I have not got an inkling of how to write Chinese characters with Chinese brush. Heck, I can't even hold a Chinese brush in the correct way. But it was all the more fun when my buddies took part in the competition too. It was just for fun's sake. What's more mind-blowing is that even Jega took part in the competition. Mind you, Jega is an Indian student and he is someone who doesn't have to know Chinese to survive. Yet, he took part in the competition along with the madcaps from my class. Cheers to Jega and all the 6SA (2011 batch) students. XOXO

Am I overblabbering? See if I care. :)

XO

=CHIcken WINGs=

Maybe it's just me.

"We" was never a word that I can use with you. It will always be "you" and "me" only.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm asking for too much.

Is it my choice to be like this? I don't know. It just happened.

=CHIcken WINGs=

Untitled.

I won't deny the fact that I really love you. But it's all impossible. I'm stupid. But I'm happy I'm stupid for a good reason.

CHIcken WINGs

When there isn't any other options, you just have to make another option yourself.

Oh, I've been dead from blogging for quite a while now. Boredom has the power to drive people to blog. Odd? I say no.

Life has been boring for me, if not down. Holidays weren't as fun as they used to be, but then again, being in Form 6 requires you to sacrifice some stuff. It's a choice you have to make. Oh well.

Did pretty well for my finals. Being somewhat a perfectionist, I didn't think I did pretty good. Yes, everybody wants that coveted 4-flat CGPA. Getting there is no easy feat, I must say. This means I've got to let go of a lot of things and use my free time solely for studying. Oh, does that sound awesomely pathetic.

Oh, I was supposed to go to Japan earlier this month, right after Sis finishes her SPM examination. To my horror, the trip was cancelled. Yup, cancelled. The boss of the travel agency was a cheat. Liar. In fact, he managed to cheat about RM 300000 from just one particular tour group to Europe. Awesome money! Don't learn from these two lousy bosses. Both of them were caught by the police when the police report was made by a few dissatisfied customers of the group going to Europe. Hope he had a fun time sitting in jail. Oh, he was bailed out of jail 2 weeks later, if I didn't mention earlier on.

As for the person I'm currently having a crush on. Oh, you just have to make the decision to open up. If you don't, then you're just choosing to imprison yourself in loneliness. 'nuff said.

XO

=CHIcken WINGs=

Hm...

Feeling so awesome after the dance practice for Christmas. It's this time of the year again. No, I don't really feel oh-so-high about this occasion. The only significance is the birth of Jesus, the Saviour of Mankind into the world. And as it is, the true birth date of Jesus is, as approximated by scientists, more specifically, astrophysicists, to be in the month of April.

So, what is Christmas, truly? As we grow older, simple things can become the mother-of-all questions. When I was a kid, Christmas was all about spending time with my loved ones, gifts and nice, cosy dinners. As time goes by, I realise that bonding time with my loved ones became more important and significant. I realise I wanted to fall in love, besides having my family and friends... This year has been pretty harsh for me, especially in what people call "love life".

Yes, I've been trying to get over this crush I'm in love with. Impossible. Not only with me. Come on, you know it. :D I've told my buddies that are in the same situation with me. Sometimes, there are moments in life where you have to let go and move on with your life. Love doesn't mean that you have to earn that person's love. If you can love the person, then let him or her live happily. Don't burden him / her, if you want to see them happy. Hell, I'm in this situation and I sound like some love-guru. WaTF.

That aside. This Christmas, all I want is just to spend time with those I care for. Just tell me you love me and how much you care for me. I'll be satisfied with that right up until the March of year 2011. Kidding. A pink G-SHOCK will make me happy. Purple vinyl jacket? Black rose ring made out of black perspex only. Hm. Aviators with yellow frame. Er, multi-coloured sneakers? Oh, that's too much.

Oh well, blah-blah too much. Wanna' see me dance? SMS me if you wanna' come to my church. XOXO

=CHIcken WINGs=

I wish. Hm.

Yes, I wish it was me. But then, it doesn't matter to me anymore. If things were meant to be good, it would turn out good.

I'm a little lost. But it's okay. I have buddies, family members and God to tell me that all is alright, and the sun will still rise and set like it always did. Nothing is too hard, nor nothing is too easy. Life is just all about ups, downs, love and most importantly living your life like you mean it. If you live your life happily, I believe God will be most delighted being, to enjoy seeing His creation be in such euphoria.

Right now, I have to be a little serious. Heart's a little sad, emotions spinning out of control. Hm.

Loves.

It's still incomplete without you.

=CHIcken WINGs=

PFFT.

I'm so really happy today. :) Well, initially. Someone said to me that I'm the greatest gift ever. :) AWW, how sweet could that be? Well, at least that made my day all the more meaningful.

:) At least I had a reason to smile until the day ended. Well, it didn't turn out that way. :(

Someone chose something else over me. Pretty heartbreaking. No, I'm not seeking out attention. I'm not an attention freak. I'm just a person with my own style and creativity. Maybe we're from different worlds. I still do like you, but I think I should like you a little less. :'( It's not even an organic life-form. Oh well, sometimes I'm worth much less than material things, I guess. Whatever. Eyes are calling me to slumberland, while my heart keeps telling my "STAY AWAKE", because I'm a little too hurt to even sleep.

Nights, to the world. Have a good day tomorrow peeps, I hope.

=CHICken WINGs=